Thursday, September 11, 2014

crime scene


 

 
bloody hearts bleed bloody heart blood
bloody hearts bleed bloody heart blood
BLOODY HEARTS BLEED BLOODY HEART BLOOD

can they arrest someone for eyes that don't answer back?
can they arrest someone for heavy footsteps?
or a voice as soft as water?

i can't sew this hair back on my head
or drink this blood back to my heart.

i can't kiss the blues out of the bruises
or seduce my skin into joining her lover again.

i've never heard my bones so loud
as when you pushed and pushed
and the word "no" didn't seem to be necessary
but it was cast away like the semi-colon
which we never seem to use anymore
forgotten like the dust above the baseboards
yesterday's small talk in the corner.

don't put baby in the corner.

my bones said, "NO"
my bones said, "STOP"
my bones said, "PLEASE"
in english
german
and french

and i'm sure the neighbors heard

but you didn't.

you did this to me.
you broke me.

i'm your then-fiancé knocked out cold in the elevator
the cold look in your eyes
and the cold way your hands pulled me out

people give me one word to describe you
and i start with cold
but i keep going

you're beautiful
you're so beautiful
god breathed life into you
and got so worked up
he forgot how to count, love

but the skies will bleed
the ashes will color our lungs black
and stop our breaths
doing the dirty work for the devil
and the ashes will still love the devil
and i will still love you.

you can shoot me dead with your daddy's pistol
you can bag the flowers from the garden
and plant my heart instead
and the worms will eat my heart
and i will still be in love with you.

the world could flood with rainwater
and the whales could swallow us whole
and jonah will get the bible story
and i will still be in love with you.

it doesn't matter what sleazy motel bed i'm sleeping in
or what whore is sleeping in your sleazy motel bed
it doesn't matter what check i'm writing
what movies are playing
or who forgot to take out the trash last night
romeo and juliet will still be a tragic love story
and i will still be in love with you.

even if your cold heart doesn't know it.

3 comments:

  1. ah. Every time. My heart shatters and I want to cry because your words are raw and beautiful and I can't handle it.

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  2. So many things to say.
    a) can they arrest someone for eyes that don't answer back?
    -no, but I wish they could because we spend too much time loving people with those kinds of eyes.
    b) I watched romeo & juliet at 3am the other night and now here it is.
    c) cold.
    this made me cold.
    in a good way.

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